Yea Im back in in school for another semester at NYIT yea... God I have Psychology, Physics, and Art history 3 which means lots of essays and term papers and tests... God I going to snap. As usual I have nothing to show for all the work ive done. Im not comfortable with showing my animations becouse I fear that no one would like them. Thats the true truth to why I never submitt them. I know everyone feels this but I get it so bad that im sure this would dammage my carreer if I dont change, but I cant. Im hoping that my thief one will help me break out of this. If I ever get the chance to work on it!

Sorry I feel bad I coulden't be on da. But its been a tough holiday season. Well first of all I live with my grandfather in NYC and he decided to go away to florida for a few weeks befor i got home from colledge. and stupid me lost the keys to the apartment. So i am currently locked out untill january 7 when he gets home. A nice friend of mine let me spend the night afterward at their house and i took a train to Vermont with the only family that i could get in contact. It is ok here except for the lack of internet access, lack of good vegiterian stuff (yes im a vegiterian now), and cats in hevery household ( i am severly alergic to them.) But i cant complain since the people here are really wonderful people and i cant thank them enough for all the help they given me. I did have a laptop and spent much of my spare time animating a little short wich i hope to put on da. Ill freekin put one up i swear! So I know its late but i wish every one a happy new year. Thanks for reading.

Well just to let you know...I am still alive (or at least i think i am). You probally all know that its colledge work that is keeping me from da. Yea i literly just finshed an animation project just a few minutes ago and its due... 4 hours from now. If you want ill post it but its not great. god i suck as an artist. anyway im sorry for being away. and i hope i can be back soon. THanx see ya.

Soon I will be relesaing my original anime that I decided to quit. I was originally not going to becouse I didn't think it was good enough, well I was looking at it and realized it isn't as bad as I thought. So... Either Wendsday or Friday (thursday is a long plane ride for me) I will be showing "MWS Gundam Hades project" Its not compleated but it is something to look at it is about 5 mins long.
I hope some of you will enjoy it and please comment on it it took a big portion of my past year, so it should be worth at least the time to write a comment. Thanks^^

Why is it so hard for me to stick to one idea? I can never seem to finsh anything I started. Once I start I get a new idea or learn something that makes all my previous work seem obsolete and then I change it, then change it again. Soon it gets to the point where it gets so off track that i defeated the reason why I even started in the first place. I guess I keep telling myself that I like working on all my projects like my anime and games that I work on, but im wondering if that is really true or is it me just worring about the end result and how people view it. I guess im paranoid and that makes it difficult to work up the will to make all that I want to happen. I always wanted to get into computer graphics since 6th grade, but now im haveing doubts that I will be able to be in such a demanding field. I dont have the creative drive anymore, I just dont feel it, and in in this field creativity is what determins everything. Sorry if I wasted your time with stupid stuff like this I just wanted to get it off my chest.